Friday 3 December 2021

It's the weather for it

 


This is... It's the weather for it.


It feels like I could successfully contact the dead.
It's the end of November and fallen leaves on the ground
are easily read.

Winter season brings a haunting to resilience. Or resilience to a haunting.

I'm not meaning through a performative medium.
Guests unconvinced by a knock, cloth or breath on neck.
I've got laudanum.

The house has sharp, cold, air in it. My father died in this room.

It feels like I could successfully contact the dead.
By myself, I don't intend to converse because it's memories
 I've come to resurrect.



 


Acid rain





This feels very much like a B-side. Not actually saying anything in particular.
This is... Acid rain


I don't want to go out in this change of weather.
I'm not having any fun in it no more.
Watching you become acid rain.
Don't want to walk under it.
Step to not slip on its shadow,
spilled thickly on the ground.
I don't want to get soaked through.
Laid there.
Cutting sheets off from my body.
In a shower of wire barbs.

Things grow on us.
Rushes.
Thorns.
Trailing vines.
Day's eyes.
They weave and they push apart.
They save and they hurt the heart.

It's a shame how it went down.
I tired of whistling for it.
Out twisted lips, always sucked instead of blew.
When I came to see, the light was blue.
When I came to talk, the temperature was blue.
When I came to touch, the hand was blue

We don't talk about the cold weather no more.





Friday 22 October 2021

Hourglass figures



 This is... Hourglass figures

We have always lived in a sandcastle.
You and your past self would not be friends.
We drift out to one another's obscurity.
We have hourglass figures.
At the end of the World.
There will be calm to count.
 Individual collateral accumulation.
Blue teddy bear, dog toy, fast food wrapper.
Foxes' hidden treasures in suburbia glade.
We have hourglass figures.
Finding faith in séance.
Playback birds from yesterday.
Sing us something we know in tremolo.
What had no weight is too heavy to lift today.
A river is only water in cupped hands.
We have hourglass figures.
Sedimented allegory.
Chroniclers are unreliable narrators.
Cassandra knew she'd be unfairly written down.
Cleopatra was shaped of the right stuff.
We have hourglass figures.





Friday 17 September 2021

Sleazier than a misused religious metaphor



I've tried to write something hot. I'm not sure a graveyard poet with an imaginary gothic band can "do" hot. But here's my go.

This is...
Sleazier than a misused religious metaphor



Across the sticky floor, stepping out a Fujifilm
"Give me a Quick Fuck"
Teasing the F out of a lower lip bite.
Bartender pours a shot of something like
Green cough syrup.
Neck exposed in the swallow.
Maneki-neko 
 Clinging to a white-T
Under, cartoon words:
"I purr if you stroke me"
Shoes that never take themselves off.
Desirous fingers always to unclasp the buckles.
Unthread the straps.
Bare footed walk into the last call black cab.

Across sticky lips, over Jesus and Mary Chain tape:
"Give me little deaths"
Smoke mixed with your breath blows
slow into my mouth on the beat of the vowels.
Try to look like I don't care for it.
Nylon to cotton.
Merlin to Morgan le Fay.
"My tongue will weave you to incantation as it takes little lives away"
Nothing more religious
Than truth telling when we consecrate the grave.
Flesh to flesh.

Across your body wearing Chanel number six. 
"Unclip me from my crucifix"
Sleazier than a misused religious metaphor.
Slithering down and round and lower.
Untied snake gold chains slip loose ends.
Let's dig our bones
Up from the soil of Eden
Let's smear each others' make-up and get to it.
In the greased embrace
Arches and eyerolls collide into energy lit
as anti-matter.
Because nothing matters.

Across a night clutching you tighter than shrink-wrap
"I love fucking darkness"
I imagine the words dripping off your shoulder.
In air thicker than smouldering fume diesel, hair touches
Sweat of the night
Glistening in the ambient light.
We can see the shapes of you and me through the nebula
As it settles on spent things.
And discarded clothing.
Like a polished adder stone
Falling through a hole in a pocket
Into a black stream.
 





Tuesday 24 August 2021

A get up time story

 



This is a little dreamy fairy story. Like a bedtime story, but for waking up.
This is... A get up time story

There once was a cabinet of childhood curiosity.
It sat where it was:
Silently, by itself, on wooden floorboards in a room.
A room ordinarily far too large for just a cabinet.
All the dust that there was ever in that room had fallen onto it.

The Wunderkammer was taller and heavier than most children.
Fragile, handmade glass let small children see what was inside:
Shape worn cloth
Shoe-dolls
Peg people
Dog-eared books
Tin-wheeled cars
Porcelain instruments
Bone houses
Half-perished mythical figurines
Well played game pieces
A taxidermy songbird with a key in its back
All warped by the uneven pond-like green glass.

A girl was overcome with curiosity at the sight of the songbird.
Carefully, she cracked a creaking cabinet door open.
She let the weight of her hand press into the feathers.
The bird was not in good condition.
Mottled, brittle feathers poked at odd angles and she could feel bones,
or perhaps brutal edged metal skeleton of an automaton.
It's eyes were black as onyx chained round a lady's clavicle
Mouldering beak yet remained as keen as a soldier's blade.
It's feet were still as steady as a church tower.

Now cradling this strange bird round it's weak wings, 
she gently began to wind the iron key in it's back.
With each stiff crank
She felt a single heartbeat reply in her palm.
"be-doom"
After 13 turns of the key, the key would turn no more times.
Running to a window of the room (which now seemed even larger)
the girl slid the sash and case window wide and released this
clockwork healed wonder into the outside.

Shaking off its mange.
Shaking off the dullness that had afflicted it for so long.
Shaking off the stagnation of a weary past
It blustered out into the vastness.

As it flew shedding its tattered mousswab shroud, she watched it, 
her arm held above her, her hand in a frozen reach of worship.

And as it flapped its wings
The bird's feathers took on new colours.
Orange of amber ingots, unique, each one
Richness of a cedar warmed in a new sun.
Russet of wise oak kings.
Crimson of a raging night fire in ancient Crete.
Shades of the charred left by defeat.

The songbird flew through a forest,
shedding it's beautiful plumage as it flew from one branch to another.
The trees fell in love with the songbird.
But songbirds do not stay.
After a moment, it flew away.
The trees, were sad, but grateful for having felt this way.
They changed the colour of their emerald leaves
to match the bird's feathers left behind
to remind themselves of a love once had of another kind.

This is why leaves change colour in autumn.

With no more feathers, the songbird could no more fly than if it were a stone.
So it fell into a field and transformed into a fire wolf.
It stretched its lithe spine.
It stretched its long, slender limbs.
It stretched it's mouth open and touched its killer teeth with a soft tongue.
Sleek and sly and nimble,
So agile it could balance on a maid's thimble.
Fur the colour of the moon above and those below who think themselves
a symbol.

The fire wolf ran through a field of grass towards a graveyard.
It swished it's brush tail between the stems as it weaved
like an assassin through a crowd of innocents.
The grass of the field fell in love with the sensation of its tail.
But fire wolves don't stand still.
In the moment when it senses its in for a kill.
The grass was sad but understood that is the wolfs' will.
They swayed at the memory of the wolf's grey hair
Like ballerinas in a trance of a love of such deep care.

This is why grass moves in pulsed waves.

The fire wolf, in all it's grandeur walked through the graveyard
The kill still on its warm breath.
The graves fell in love with this mistress of death.
This big, bad, omen, they could not resist.
But after death, life moves on.
Pleasure is never without a grief fully gone.
The graveyard was sad but knew one day the wolf would return.
The gravestones bowed and curtsied in respect
Of a love they could not always come to except.

This is why gravestones look bent over and askew in old cemeteries.

The fire wolf needed to clean itself of sin
So it ran to the sea and dived right in.
The nocturnal fur washed away and it transformed into a fish.
The most exotic fish the sea ever saw.
The exotic fish flashed its treasure jewel scales.
It flashed its sunken boat sail tail.
It flashed its backbone coral spikes.

The exotic fish swam the seven seas, churning up the waters.
The seas all agreed this fish should be kept and loved.
But exotic fish aren't meant to be caught
It swims because freedom is hard fought.
The seas were sad but they knew they could not.
So they followed as far each of them could travel
For a love so exotic they could only marvel.

This is why the seas move in tides.

The fish loved the sky and remembered when it could fly.
It was sad but this was a love it could not deny.
It changed it's shimmering fins as into sparkling wings,
and leapt out the sea, and its scales left its body
And its skeleton left its body
And its body left its essence.
And it transformed into atomic droplets.

The atomic droplets skipped on clouds like skimming stones
The clouds fell in love with this neon dance.
Clouds and droplets from water are a perfect match.
But droplets do not last.
They shine, fall and disappear so fast.
The clouds were sad they would never feel love the same
The pain made the clouds tear into punishing rain.
They beg the sun to remind them of it again.

This is why there are rainbows.

The girl looks out the window of the empty room,
(which now seemed very small)
aside from the Cabinet.
The sky is near cave blue.
Hears a far off "be-doom"
This is why rain follows thunder so soon.
She knows there is a heart beating for me and you.



Tuesday 25 May 2021

Go-go sunrays (pool party mix)

 


This is... Go-go sunrays (pool party mix)

Flesh starved.
I'm ready to rip out throats with my teeth.

This is only painless if I couldn't care less
that it fuckin hurts.
That's how it fuckin is.

Touch deprived.
Let's get down to it and compare depravity.

Nails run over like vice and I swear to Christ
They cover me like sunrays.
That's how it fuckin is.

What's the point of building bridges
if I don't use matchsticks?
What's the point of living in a castle
if villagers don't wear crucifix against the blowing wind?

Tongue tied.
You didn't like my handwriting so I changed it.

I draw letters blotted out on sky-less days
now shaped into sunrays.
That's how it fuckin is.

Hard wired.
Drink me. Eat me. I taste exactly as you want. 

Snip the countdown wire, it won't stop the fire
It wasn't connected anyway
That's how it fuckin is.

What's the point of building bridges
if I don't use matchsticks?
What's the point of loving you now
if it's isn't for the suffering?
What's the point of where my spirit lays 
if it can't be dried by sunrays?

Light sensitive.
I keep losing you again and again in the maelstrom.
But I won't stop reaching for you to get it on.
That's how it is fuckin is.




Friday 19 March 2021

It ain't snowing over seas




This is really a b-side.

This is... It Ain't Snowing Over Seas


It ain't snowing over seas,
It's cold pink petals floating on the shore.
What's a rise and fall narrative for,
Only to miss ebb and flow behind every one?
All the while trying to figure out how to navigate
A way through this undertow state.
I'm a plan 9 survivalist.
Left with resilience to last out whatever this is.
Can't be everything it seems, immersion in a deep dream.
But then I got the feeling I'm awake and wired to a socket,
And why do I have blossom in my jacket pocket?

It ain't snowing over me,
It's cold letters settling unwritten, never sent.
The book on the shelf: poetry of Brecht,
In one of these years I'll open it up, I suspect,
When no one I trust is calling on the phone
I want all this living to leave me alone.
I'm a plan 9 spiritualist.
Left with fallow faith to grow with what I'm faced.
Demons exorcised slow notice we're the ebb and flow,
Perished, weakly moaning, they vomit stories to the floor,
Looking much like snow, floating on the shore.