Thursday 29 December 2016

It's important for every poet to die


When the girl is in the room, I'll change the "she"s to "you"s and "her"s to "your"s.

This is: It’s important for every poet to die

You know what it was?
It was a primal snarl to God.
I have finite breath for God’s infinite listening.  
You know what this is?
It is my regret like a chainsaw.
Taken to the soft between ribcage and pelvis.  
You know what this will be?
It will be an upstairs room therapy.
As long as I fuel it with muse effigies of you.  

A girl, I guess, wants her heart poured over
By hot murmurs of a poet who feels death.
Such is death’s thinness.
Wants her nerves candle wax bathed
By a poet’s proof of conditions all meaningless.
Such is life’s thinness.
Wants her hair intimately tousled
By poetry which won’t sicken alongside her aging,
Such is youth's thinness.  

It strikes me right now,
In the dreary twilight point before sleep:
Where we laid in sweet evening figary, absorbed in each other
When she wrapped her cotton polyester mix legs around my leg
I realise right now she was Joan Baez.
But I thought Joan Baez sang Big Yellow Taxi.  

It’s important for every poet to die.
No girl wants the snarling to thin.




Tuesday 15 November 2016

I wrote this super-fast on the occasion of the super-moon


Sometimes a title says it all.

This is: I wrote this super-fast on the occasion of the super-moon

“Moon of my Delight”.
An age recorded soundbite.
I echo out from time to time.
Listening for any sign.
From way out… there.
Nothing comes by or care.  

That satellite line: “Moon of my Delight”.
Then in the woods last night,
As night was closing,
The sea was dozing,
Riding on a frosty leaf did fly,
A beautiful whisper in reply.  

Like an astronomer first hearing a message from static light-years.
Stumbling, unable to comprehend what suddenly clears.  

“Moon of my Delight”
Goddess from starlight
Tore forward the infinite sky
On a golden chariot from high
Called “Gloria!”
And the breeze it swept chorused “Gloria!”  

Crescent wings in long, moondril hair
Bodice made of moon white bone
Luna and Juno nestled in bustier
She lashed at the two galloping, silver steeds
Rearing their heads, crazed eyes, manes wild as trauma
Foaming constellations from their bridles
They skid a scorch across my view, to a crystalline halt
Weaving forth a wave of space colour behind
Splashing great fans of painted lurid vibrancy
Crashing behind the vision above me
Like rough waves crashing against shore breaks
She: on awesome acid sprayed canvas
Above me, on my back.
Rhymes no longer mattered.  

Wide eyed, I looked up.
She drew death gilded leaves around me.



Sunday 6 November 2016

If you keep loading the gun, friend, you can’t keep blaming the bullets

This Greville and the Tombstones track could mean something different to everyone. What the stars might represent, what the rain actually is. Even the title is has deliberate purpose.

The track's symbolism certainly has a narrative for me, personally - a code, that I can relate to. My hope is that it can do similar for other readers. For that reason I like it and I think it is special, if a slight piece.

I hope you enjoy it.



This is:
If you keep loading the gun, friend, you can’t keep blaming the bullets


My eyes are hollowed out by a thousand sunsets
On a hundred wars
My eyes can see there are no stars in the night’s sky.
They have all been shot down over this cityscape.
Fallen lifeless on the ground.
Or strangled and thrown into pitch dark waters.  

So how come no one else notices?  

Young eyes, fresh eyes, clever eyes:
Don’t see what I see.  

You took my closed eyes and You opened them wide
To a hundred visions
I was not ever blind: the rain was blacker than night.
I saw What Haunts Me drown under the rainstorm.
Fallen lifeless on the ground.
And people talked to its glistening corpse, blind.  

So how come no one else notices?  

Is it not perfect now, how it is?
How you see things?

I see the black rain, lashing onto hard pavements
from a hundred eyes
I see sneers and the blind are blindly following on.
I see people kidding themselves they have not
fallen lifeless on the ground.
Eyes fixed on motion of others’ fragile balance.  

So how come no one else notices?
 
Perfection, eyes wide, lying here.
Seeing like I imagined.






Call me mad: a photograph by Jeanie Laub

I am delighted to share this photograph with adorers of the Band.

Artist, and friend, Jeanie Laub - someone I admire very much for her work which is often haunting and (something which captivates me) always projects an intense image of the thought processing behind the eyes in her subjects - photographed one of my works.

It is a beautiful photograph. It is one which captures aspects that resonate with me: not just about the words in it, but also of deeper aspects of my work as a whole. I feel very connected to it.


Image courtesy of Jeanie Laub, 2016


Please do seek out Jeanie's exhibitions whenever you are able.

Hymn für die Kirche der Krähen

My friend, the wonderful @tellthee has translated my Hymn For The Church of Crows into the better German. 
I hope people enjoy it as much as I do thinking of it being sung in gorgeous church spaces.






Sunday 9 October 2016

I wish you better

This a song that I needed to get out my system. And hopefully it is now out of it.





It's called...
I wish you better


I wish you better so I can miss you like homesickness

I wish you better so I cut myself

You are not better enough to deserve my scars

You are as a crisp November leaf in fire

I wish you better so I wander, broken

You are not better enough to deserve my fractures

You cast no light to cast no ill-light

I wish you better so I send flower heads

You are not better enough to deserve my mourn

You are far from risen from the dead

Christ Almighty, I wish you better.







An ode to feeling this way

This is a song about having an anxiety attack.



An ode to feeling this way

Come to me, squeeze me.
Place your hands on my hips and inflict pain on me.
Remind me, too, of the night scent of strawberry smoke.
I get it occasionally.
Drink with me, Lonely.
Don’t need a barmaid, or barman. Poison for my company.
Take my control, being and shape:
turn me an aberration when skewering me.
Fingers delicate over and under the spinal cord,
playing out something grotesquely.

And what is this wave, but helplessness
And what is this sensation, but a falling
And what is this place, but my own hell

Muscles twitch but don’t get to anywhere,
feel the air like beetle antennae.
Heart rattles its bars, brain throttles the jailer, captives
I’m taking down with me.
A vibration in wires of veins and arteries into paralysis,
detuned ethereality.
Soul a rag. Eye burned yolk. Magnesium teeth tighten.
I’m my own enemy.
Damned pain: pain of the joyful act with the absence of joy.
A repetition zombie.

And what is this wave, but encasement
And what is this sensation, but landing
And what is this place, but my own hell

No one can reach into me and release the screw and I want to sleep longer





Thursday 6 October 2016

When I used to stand in-between a graveyard and a library

For National Poetry Day, I've written a new piece.
I wrote it quickly and it was enjoyable to put down.
This is something more clearly autobiographical than a lot of the Greville and the Tombstones tracks. I might well return to this style again.

But don't panic. However stripped back, it still is Greville and the Tombstones and if it came with a tune, it would be played on by an accordion.




When I used to stand in-between a graveyard and a library:

I remember standing, recalling latest songs in my head
From Thursday TV shows,
Re-running action from 24bit games,
Freeze framing a girl I noticed in the library earlier,
when I held a book with a fuchsia cover.
Always in blank winter light, my breath would cloud in the thin shelter.
I stood with barely more than one thing to be.
In my shapeless, black fleece jacket, I’d kick Doc Martens' scuffs at the pavement.
Fingers blushed from the concrete air.
The weight of my hair drawn in a swoop over my right eye as I invented
fantastic proposals I would definitely turn down.
Others were creating beauty so I didn’t need to bother.
My shapeless, black fleece turned feathers.
I figured I would tend the graveyard in the harshest conditions,
knowing that others wouldn’t be able to make it on such days.
Though they would often want to.



Saturday 10 September 2016

My hair is white but not like how Moses’ hair is white

Peggy Shaw by Alfred Cheney Johnston

This is:
My hair is white but not like how Moses’ hair is white

I’ve always been fascinated by Moses’ hair:
Did it really turn white up on the mount.
From conversing with God, way up there?
I’m not sure it happened like this.
I’ve got white hair but I don’t count,
God’s number amongst my contact lists.
The Almighty took silence.
I got white hair waiting for the voice.
I don’t live in a deep forest, but I don’t care
Of angels who cannot see for the trees.
Conversing with burning bushes, they’re
Hollow acts setting fire to themselves.
I’ve got white hair but I don’t believe
In burnt angel shaped cinder memories.
My angels have combusted.
I got white hair from their settling ashes.
I’ve often wondered: Did Moses’ staff of prayer, 
Struck on the coast to set his people free,
Really split and part the deep Red Sea?
That conversing with waves to get over there
Wasn’t just part of the orbit naturally?
I’ve got white hair but separating a sea
Was not as hard as between you and me.
My lovers have drowned.
I got white hair from the salted air.
My gods silenced themselves.
My angels burned themselves.
My lovers drowned themselves.
And I got white hair.
But not like how Moses got white hair.

Every ticket is a loser

This is not an allegory. There are no hidden meanings. No riddles to be solved are here. Greville and the Tombstones are not enigmatic. We are not Travis. Sorry, I mean this one.

This is a song about going to any common and garden circus and seeing what is going on at the circus.

Apart from the part about the two-handed lady. That is definitely about someone.

Carnival Strippers (1976)

This is:
Every Ticket Is A Loser


In the rafters, the incandescent light
Of my lonely self. People’s lives on brighter screens
Far from the life I lead, the screams of skeletons
who are equals And some beyond thin.
Some really beyond my pale skin.
Want to know how it must feel,
To bare a smile like old paint peel.
No matter the times it turns over, it says the same.
Magic 8-Ball: ‘Ask me again’
So I head out to this circus of tents,
Under slumber sky, forwardly drawn to naked lights
Far from the life I lead,
 the delights of skeletons who are equals
And some beyond thin
Some really beyond my pale skin
And the ringmaster says:
Roll up! Roll Up! Every ticket is a loser.
Enter, Enter! It’s the only show in this town!
Only thing at all around!
See stripper carnival girls shake up and down!
And a fine-suited lawyer in make-up of a clown.
Visit Freaks n’ Geeks in their side-show home!
You can brush their teeth with a spider leg comb.
Watch the contortionist held in chains on high!
Suspend belief that self-made wings will really fly
And the ride operator says:
Roll up! Roll Up! Every ticket is a loser.
Hit the target with each throw: win a prize!
A fish in a bag of water.
Step right up to the Hall of Mirrored View!
Rows of unblinking eyeballs focus back on you
Hurry, board the glo-coloured Ghost Train!
Half-vapour regrets tied down on tracks prayin’
Sorry, the Tunnel of Love is out of bounds!
Closed until notice, that is, it can again be found
And the Fortune teller says:
Roll up! Roll Up! Every ticket is a loser.
Come close so you may know your future.
Feel my hot, wet breath.
Put the tin chip into the coin-slot cabinet!
Watch a mechanical man judder round in it.
Stand in awe at the belittlers and liars!
Witness audacious back bending on tight wires.
Walk in unease of a two-handed lady wonder!
One candy floss is another’s knife of a murderer.
And the candy floss is poisoned too, people eat it because it's sweetly vacuous.
Roll Up! Roll up! Join this circus!
My lonely self sees nothing is first what they seem
Far from the life I lead, this is a shriek
 of greased skeletons.
And some beyond thin.
Some really beyond my pale skin.



Wednesday 31 August 2016

You stole my heart, Jeanie

Friend and artist, Jeanie Laub, has drawn this beautiful scene of underlying tension, inspired by one of my earliest pieces for Greville and the Tombsones, You Stole My Heart (I'd Like It Back From Your Thieving Hands).


You took my heart,
I did not give it,
You could’ve had part,
But that wasn’t your game.
You’ve got it caged,
Somewhere very secret,
So I’d like it back,
From your thieving hands.


By Jeanie Laub

This interpretation of my words is heart stopping for me.

I am so very lucky to know Jeanie and have her inspired by, and be inspiring to, me.

You can see more of Jeanie's gorgeous and affecting art on Jeanie's website.

Wednesday 17 August 2016

The Wishing Tomb (full length)

Who would read The Wishing Tomb Pt.1 and Pt. 2 as a single piece? Who could?

For those brave enough, here is:
The Wishing Tomb (full length)



Really could have done with anyone getting out of anything alive.
Watch dust motes trickle on a sun shard stream, all is in vain.
Consider the jewel of a breath, consider the paltry matter a bauble.
Screw the tap but know congealing blood tumult laps in the darkness.
Disturbed coil of cobalt night unwinds into the settling blonde wheat field.
Spirit, fragile as water film tension, gently heaves top the twilight lake.
Time leaves Fate softly suffering and bubbling in its wake.
The distress is warm. Warm on the body.
Fresh shine washes on the back. On the front. Pressing from above.
There is never any comfort in endings: Endings are snapped continues.
I thought this was a lacquered stop, but it is perfectly permeable despondence.
I thought this was the bottom, but it is a Mezzanine.
Thunder barrel clouds cut, lightning bolts lash on the scene.
The immenseness outside this chamber creaks but remains unseen.
Wretched is this monument to my muse of Tragedy, sculpted by familiar hands, ruined to stone.
Still is this tomb which weathers against all under an electrocute sky: place of my grief.
  
Like the light bulb buzzing at the end of a long windowless corridor,
I flick into and out of life.
At once solace and direction and panic and confusion.
Come for me, flee for me.
Nothing but a glint of a glimpse of a moth’s fluttered glance.
A magic tempts another.
Settle yourself at the feet of the tomb, it’s a long way to travel,
Rest here in the tranquil.
Loss is worshipped when it chooses a glitter form
As ruin can fool as warm.
Listen to the orbit of the moon, each mare introduced
Save, don’t be seduced.
I say of my loss: do not let these snake hips of mine distract you,
Left hand believes in poetry:
Fingers like reeds yielding to an evening breeze,
Conducting sign of the Cross,
All the while a forked tongue lashes at your collar bone,
Tasting the salty nape.
Daylight is fading now, or is it the night thawing from the sky,
Either one, it is welling with trauma.
The limp, searing and relentless inevitable
washes like Shore surf, rattling pebbles.
This naked mortality is flat out, glittering on the cold table,
snapped continues
The pillars speak soft: overwhelmed, dear boy, simply overwhelmed,
It’s alright: we comprehend.
And even if we do not and it is not: it matters you not.
Be lured, be repulsed.
To this tomb both as adversary and testament to motion.
Wishes walk no further: Place of my grief.


Saturday 13 August 2016

God's Councel

@laubjean and @tellthee tweeted this week with images which were for me.

They are emotive, beautiful and are special to me and I want to share them here.

by Jeanie Laub

by Jeanie Laub

by Jeanie Laub

by Jeanie Laub




by @tellthee

by @tellthee

The translation of the script is:
IT IS DESIGNED IN GOD'S COUNCEL,
THAT ONE MUST EXIT FROM THE BELOVED ONE HAS




Friday 12 August 2016

Das Wunschgrab von Greville Tombs Der Tragödie zweiter Teil

Joyfully, @tellthee has translated Greville and the Tombstones work, "The Wishing Tomb Pt. 2" into the better German language for Greville and the Tombstone tracks.

This is: Das Wunschgrab von Greville Tombs Der Tragödie zweiter Teil

 
To read the original, here it is.
 
photo by @tellthee
 
@tellthee goes to great efforts on the translations of my texts and I am more grateful than, ironically, I can find the words for. I am very appreciative of all @tellthee does to promote the work of the band. #thereisnoband #thereistellthee
 
 
 
 
 
 

Saturday 30 July 2016

Hymn for the Church of Crows

I decided to try and write a hymn, this was the result. I'm not sure how many school assemblies will pop it in their hymn sheets after Make Me A Channel Of Your Peace. But, then, this is Greville and the Tombstones so I'm not that fussed. This is for the congregation of the Church of Crows.

This is:

Hymn for the Church of Crows:



Knocking at the church door:
“I want to talk to you about Jesus”
I’m not waving here.
I’m not waving.
My patched up prayer is leaking.
 
They say my body is a copy every 7 years.
But each copy is slightly more imperfect.
I am not already damaged enough?
 
Jesus, why am I tested,
When I’m set up to fail?
Told not to touch temptation,
then it’s placed on the tip of my finger?
You know,
I’m going to ask Satan for the answer.
 
Preacher at the church door,
I want to talk to you about Jesus.
I’m not waving here.
I’m not waving.
My patched up prayer is leaking.
 
In this church yard I’ll soon turn quiet.
Under letters of stone, my life done.
Can I not live what life remains?
 
Jesus, why am I living,
when life isn’t too fair?
Told to be pious, devout and pure,
then reward me when I’m boxed under?
You know,
I’m going to ask Satan for the answer.
 
Through stained-glass windows,
I want to talk to you about Jesus
I’m not waving here.
I’m not waving.
My patched up prayer is leaking.
 
Cruel gloom exists as our executioner.
After my Judgement comes a verdict.
Will my defence to the jury be read?
 
Jesus, why have I faith,
When you don’t believe it?
Jesus, you don’t get my situation
Jesus, I think maybe Satan may be kinder.
You know,
I’m going to ask Satan for the answer.



Monday 25 July 2016

The Wishing Tomb. Pt. 2

It is a little known fact that Chris Rea's seminal rock record Road To Hell was in two parts.
It could be listened to separately or conjunctively.
The first was a Americana gothic piece of  Middlesbrough horror, the second a straight laced rock beat.

The Wishing Tomb Pt. 1 was the gothic horror.

This is The Wishing Tomb Pt. 2. This is the beat.

Minnie Mouse by Julia-Green
This is:

The Wishing Tomb Pt. 2:


 
Like the light bulb buzzing at the end of a long windowless corridor,
I flick into and out of life.
At once solace and direction and panic and confusion.
Come for me, flee for me.
Nothing but a glint of a glimpse of a moth’s fluttered glance.
A magic tempts another.
 
Settle yourself at the feet of the tomb, it’s a long way to travel,
Rest here in the tranquil.
Loss is worshipped when it chooses a glitter form
As ruin can fool as warm.
Listen to the orbit of the moon, each mare introduced
Save, don’t be seduced.
 
I say of my loss: do not let these snake hips of mine distract you,
Left hand believes in poetry:
Fingers like reeds yielding to an evening breeze,
Conducting sign of the Cross,
All the while a forked tongue lashes at your collar bone,
Tasting the salty nape.
 
Daylight is fading now, or is it the night thawing from the sky,
Either one, it is welling with trauma.
The limp, searing and relentless inevitable
washes like Shore surf, rattling pebbles.
This naked mortality is flat out, glittering on the cold table,
snapped continues
 
The pillars speak soft: overwhelmed, dear boy, simply overwhelmed,
It’s alright: we comprehend.
And even if we do not and it is not: it matters you not.
Be lured, be repulsed.
To this tomb both as adversary and testament to motion.
Wishes walk no further: Place of my grief.
 
 



Sunday 24 July 2016

Das Wunschgab von Greville Tombs Der Tragödie erster Teil

The wonderful @tellthee has translated the latest from Greville and the Tombstones.

This is: Das Wunschgab von Greville Tombs Der Tragödie erster Teil


To read the original, here it is

Many, many thanks to @tellthee for digging a layer of heavy depth to this piece.

photo by @tellthee



Monday 4 July 2016

The Wishing Tomb. Pt. 1

This is a track that is slightly more dense than what the pop kids a usually used to. Here there are few rhymes to be found. It even struggled to be named.

Greville and the Tombstones fans are still waiting for the pool-party hit anthem of the summer. But those who adore Greville and the Tombstones know that this track is as close as one is going to be.

In any case, if Greville and the Tombstones was sound-tracking your summer pool party, then it would be awesome.

And the pool would be filled by tears.

And there would be no petting allowed, but long doleful stares and silent prayers to be noticed by those you have special affections for in the deep end.

Anyway, this is the sound of Greville and the Tombstone's summer.


This is:

The Wishing Tomb. Pt. 1

Really could have done with anyone getting out of anything alive.
 
Watch dust motes trickle on a sun shard stream, all is in vain.
Consider the jewel of a breath, consider the paltry matter a bauble.
Screw the tap but know congealing blood tumult laps in the darkness.
Disturbed coil of cobalt night unwinds into the settling blonde wheat field.
Spirit, fragile as water film tension, gently heaves top the twilight lake.
Time leaves Fate softly suffering and bubbling in its wake.
The distress is warm. Warm on the body.
Fresh shine washes on the back. On the front. Pressing from above.
 
There is never any comfort in endings: Endings are snapped continues.
 
I thought this was a lacquered stop, but it is perfectly permeable despondence.
I thought this was the bottom, but it is a Mezzanine.
Thunder barrel clouds cut, lightning bolts lash on the scene.
The immenseness outside this chamber creaks but remains unseen.
Wretched is this monument to my muse of Tragedy, sculpted by familiar hands, ruined to stone.
Still is this tomb which weathers against all under an electrocute sky: place of my grief.
 
 
 
 

Saturday 25 June 2016

I am a priest of crows

My work, The Priest of Crows is something I am very fond of. And others are very fond of it too.

The Priest of Crows has become a character all of his own. Someone I am very fond of.

My dear friend @telltheee tweeted about the Priest of Crows. I was so fond of it I said I would love to have a t-shirt with the tweet printed.

Wonderfully and incredibly a package arrived from Germany and now I am proud owner of a Crow Priest T-shirt for summer praise. I wear it out and I feel like a missionary, for those I can't spiritually touch.

The Priest of Crows spoke and we shall be healed


Friday 27 May 2016

Der Priester der Krähen

To paraphrase Star-Trek:
You've never read Greville and the Tombstones until you have read it in German.

The wonderful @tellthee, who I am lucky to call a friend, has translated into German my work The Priest of Crows









I truly believe the German language versions of my works add a special dimension to the meaning of them.

And of course, the translation means that German fans of the band can more easily enjoy Greville and the Tombstones.

I love that my words are translated here.


 



Tuesday 17 May 2016

Artwork by Jeanie Laub

I am very lucky to know some amazing people through this blog. One of those is the talented artist Jeanie Laub, living in Edinburgh.

I've appreciated Jeanie's art for some time, attending her gallery exhibitions, and I was terribly nervous when we finally met this year. I barely uttered a word!

Jeanie has unveiled a work which incorporates my poetry (an excerpt from Seven Deadly Sorrows).

It was unexpected and I am utterly thrilled. I am incredibly touched and love the piece very much.

Although I cannot tell how much of the drawing was inspired by me, each of the beautiful elements in the artwork resonate in me. I feel that it captures something of me, a feeling both disorientating and wonderful.

I hope one day to be able to visit it when exhibited.

I hope Jeanie won't mind me sharing it here for admirers of the band.

Never in my life thought I would inspire art. I will be forever grateful to Jeanie that I have.

 
 
 
 

Sunday 15 May 2016

The Priest of Crows

This is:
The Priest of Crows
Won’t someone rid me
of this
black feathered smoke which
haunts around my bones,
Skulks on my gallows

I have only a little life, after all

Ribcage kirk congregation
Gather
Dead risen, gnashing teeth
Shimmering oyster shells,
Hymns a wail of woes

I want to peck out all the souls
I cannot peck out all the souls
I cannot taste my own.
I am a priest of crows

I call out “blood, your blood!”
To you
Cry out gutturally to you
Murder cold winds howl
Sermon driven low

I’ll set my wings wide on the sky
Wilfully
May my light reach thee:
My trembling words reach thee!
As grieving craws

I want to save all the souls
I cannot save all the souls
I cannot save my own
I want to heal all the souls
I cannot heal all the souls
Scratched is my own
I can no longer hear your prayers
I will no longer hear your prayers
I want to absolve all your sins.
My forgiveness cannot grow
Down a path you chose.
I am a priest of crows

Won’t someone take me
Off this
Gibbet beam, I care for it not.
I am no salvation here.
I am a priest of crows

I have only a little life, after all

Tuesday 19 January 2016

Lusts and Grudges: Tell Thee mix

I am incredibly appreciative of friend of the band, @tellthee who has translated the latest Greville and the Tombstones hit, Lust and Grudges into German.

I am so grateful that @tellthee has taken the time to do this. And it is a perfect choice for her to make, like Romantic Masochist, to be written in German.

Lusts and Grudges has affected a lot of the fans and I know that this new version in translation will add to everything they feel about it.

I love this version. It is amazing.
It is Lusts and Grudges, covered and mixed and translated by the fabulous @tellthee.


Wednesday 13 January 2016

Lusts and Grudges

This song came unexpectedly, but took some time to get to this state. This state where I am happy to show it.
I think that it is unusual in that it can be played by Greville and the Tombstones in two ways depending on how the vibes are: bouncy free-roaming or as an aging stomp. Who knows which is lusts and which grudges?
Of course it is unusual too, because there is not even one tune for it.
This apart, I'm pleased with it as I think it is definitely a full-on Greville and the Tombstones track.
I hope the fans and the adorers like it.
You are in my soul.

Lusts and grudges:
I hold lusts
As long as I hold grudges
No matter how deep below
They can be
Resurrected
So they burn through me
Soul for gasoline
I feel lusts
Same as I feel grudges
Fill my feeble condition
Spiteful
And essential
And they won’t die down
Soul for a dungeon
I’ve trapped them
I’ve buried them
I’ve painted them
I’ve caged them
I’ve ripped them
I’ve slit them
I’ve adored them
I’ve rendered them
I’ve carried them
I’ve used them
And I burn all your religious artefacts
Can’t cast out
Lusts and grudges
Keep me held under the gun
With Jesus,
I’m on fire
Lord parched from sermonising
Sole for clear water
I’m nothing but
Lusts and grudges
Beautiful and terrible to behold
I hold them
All to me
But none I hold the way
My soul holds you
I’ve loaded them
I’ve filed them
I’ve torn them
I’ve revolved them
I’ve explored them
I’ve taken them
I’ve washed them
I’ve stirred them
I’ve whipped them
I’ve shot them
And they burn right through my photographs
And I’m nothing but lusts and grudges
They are beautiful and terrible to behold
I hold them
All tight to me
But there’s none I hold the way
My soul holds onto the image of you